In no way am I intending to pursue a perfect life. In fact, the appreciation of life comes from it flaws; without, I would not appreciate what I have obtained and that of which I have been given. What I want, is a life that is filled with freedom, experiences, and energy. And as a firm believer in karma, it’s my intention to give all of myself for the sake of positive impact.
If you have read this site, you may get the jist that I am hard on myself and that I take life too seriously. This is a valid point, yet the reason why I take life seriously is because I enjoy the challenge—so much to the extent that when I feel the pain, I experience a calming sensation of presence. Simply, when I encounter ‘pain’, my soul expands and matches closer to the frequency of the one. It is pain that provides the greatest source for my development and my ability to empathize with others.
Moving on, why let life come to me when I can come at life?
The earth is a woman that craves penetration and as her loyal servant, it’s my prerogative to give what she desires, for she is my queen.
Lately, I have felt as if I am entering a long tunnel and have witnessed darkness fall behind as I am moving forward with no idea of escape. My brain is fogged with such extreme internal tension that I just want to go all out and fuck shit up. Ultimately, I want to be the vanguard of light and destroy darkness while implementing a grand vision of my ideal world. Now what’s stopping me?
Honestly, nothing. I am stopping myself.
I let people take me down.
I question myself, I question my capabilities.
Yet, I own the supporting experiences that prove otherwise. What is really happening is that the universe is telling me that I need to recalibrate. Become the disciple.
From the feedback I am receiving, I have been too comfortable with above average performance. Not focusing in a single direction and dragging a barge of weight behind, the ship of might will inevitably sink unless a remedy is found. Heeding this warning, I have chosen to cut the cord and let the supply line sink as I increase momentum into the vast waters of time and space.
I am the example.
How far can I go?